Friday, September 14th, 2007
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9:58 am - 8 maids a milkin'
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My legs aren't red anymore but they are still itchy...great...just great.
So I get married in 8 days...ahhhhhhhhhhhhh...8 days. I still have to pack my room because one of my sisters friends is moving in on the frst of OCT. But I sure am looking forward to my stagette this saturday...all the nice and pretty things i'll receive...should be fun. I have NO idea what my sisters have planned. No idea at all which is weired because usually i have some idea of what's going on and then pretend i'm surprised but i actually have no idea at all...it's exciting. Keith's stag is a freakin' weekend...does kenny not think?? do he not assume that there is a million things to do the weekend before the wedding?? Why the hell would he take my groom away so i have to do everything...cant stand kenny. ive already had on stag with my girlfriends from work. that was fun...a little bit racy but good!! I do enjoy their company!!
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Wednesday, September 5th, 2007
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6:31 pm - blah blah
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Can you bleive only 17 days left of being single...wowzers! So I finally went to the doctor today and had my legs checked out AND some BCP stuff and she is sending me for blood work...it'll be nice to know that there is really nothing wrong with me-just a little stress. Sometimes Keith will tell me that no matter what he's loves me and is commited to me. And that he is sure he is supposed to marry me. This settles me because that means if China isnt really in the picture he'll go with it. Does that make sense??
Today i'm working the late shift at work-they drive me up the wall. I mean I dont have to come in until 12 but then I leave at 7:30...that's a whole day shot!! Feels like such a waste.
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Wednesday, August 29th, 2007
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3:45 pm - would you believe 24days...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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I know I always say that i'm not stressed out and that marriage doesnt scare me an blah blah blah...but...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH stress is showing itself through my body, i've broken out in hives, i cry all the time, i can't sleep, i eat eat eat...and i've had enought. I'm ready to admit i'm scared! Very scared! What if Keith isn't "the one?" What if we dont have any fun married. What if I suck at being a wife-that's bound to happen!! What if our place is too small and i really really can no long stand the sight of him?? Am I too young?? Do I really want to be in China...ever?? What if I hate marriage...being tied down. What if we have no money??
This weekend Keith and David are going camping-woo hoo!! So we are going to have a girls night...that'll be fun!! It'll be nice to just hang with the girls...sometimes I feel like I only ever hangout with keith...which i do enjoy but i start to miss the other friends.
current mood:  scared
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Thursday, August 9th, 2007
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3:20 pm - A new count down begins...
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I'm so embarassed that it's been so long since I posted...dang facebook and regular e-mail are taking all my time! Anyway...i've been bogged down with wedding stuff...even though we did so much before we left for China there are so many small things that need doing...It's weird, I've always dreamed of my wedding, i've been planning it for years, but when the time comes to get it done I dont really care all that much about what flowers I want, or colors, or where I want my pictures...I just want to be married...not have a wedding...just be wed. It's strange, kinda hard to explain.
So today at work some of my girlfriends tell me that one of my co-works (attends german church of god, very legalistic, nobodt likes him) has been asking people questions about me like, "why isnt her parents paying for her wedding? Does rachael go out with you on the weekend? does she drink? how much? how often?" stuff that really is none of his business and he feels he can judge me...ass!!!! So i'm taking my boss in with me to talk with him...give him a good beating...good ol' tyler beating (of course fot that to be true i'd have to call the whole clan down...)
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Friday, April 27th, 2007
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12:59 pm - 8 days 22 hours and 41 minutes
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It's Chattabox Camp this weekend...woo hoo!! This may be the last Chattabox for a while...i'm not sure that we'll do it again next year-the leaders are so worn out. That's what bugs me so much about my church. It's the same people running these programs and when they get tired there is nobody to replace them...dang it. Anyway also going on this weekend JOHN MAYER, Maria's roommate got me a free ticket to go see him! I'm so excited! And we get to sit in one of those fancy boxes. That's just great! So this afternoon at work we're very short staffed so i'm answering phone...haha weird...instead of teching....it's kind of a nice break!!
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Wednesday, April 25th, 2007
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5:24 pm - 11 Days to China
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I've packed 5 boxes...and i think i'll move my shelf and bed frame over tonight...last night Yoj and I had a sleep over. It was fun. Im pretty sure i'll miss having her as my roommate...I sope we still hang out...im sure we will. I want her to co MC the wedding.
I've felt really fat and ugly for the last 3 weeks....i've gotta do something about that!
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Monday, April 23rd, 2007
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11:18 am - 13 days till China
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My goodness...so i've been engaged for about 17 days and we've pretty much booked and planned the entire wedding. Man we're awesome!! Now we can just coast until after China. I bought my dress yesterday...50% off!!! So it was only $700...pretty sweet action. It's not the type of dress I thought I would ever wear but I really really like it! I find myself second guessing my choice in dress but can't do too much about it now...and i'm sure that's normal...right??
In other news...i've decided to take the walk of shame and move back home before China. It's gonna save me a lot of money and I dont think i'll mind being back there for a few months anyway, it'll be nice to hang with the siblings every day again.
It's nana's birthday today so we're all getting together for some sup, tea, and dessert! Yummo! I love it when it's just my family and Nana and Grandad, such a pleasant time!
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Sunday, April 8th, 2007
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9:26 am - a day at the zoo
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So for the last month Steph Dave Keith and I have been planning on going to the Calgary Zoo on the 7th of April. Keith also told me that he had a cousin flying into the city on that day and he wanted to visit with him at the airport on our way out. Apparently steph and dave didnt want to wake up that early to meet someone they didnt know at the airport so they were going to meet us there a little later. So Keith gets to my house at 7:30 in the morning and we head out for the airport to meet the cousin. I fell asleep on the way out becuause i was so tired. When we get there Keith wakes me up and says "rachael i have something to tell you, we're not going to the zoo...we're flying to Vancouver for the day to go to the aquarium because youve been wanting to go to one for a long time" At first I was a little disappointed because i was really looking forward to the zoo but once we were on the plane I was all geared up to see the whales. I fell asleep again on the plane-soooo tired. So we get to Vancouver, rent a car (a toyota yaris-ugly little thing) and head to the aquarium. It was great they have so many sweet fish and the whales are soooo fat, the dolphins where also fairly cool. We were getting hungry at around 12ish so we went to fine some sustenance. The only place we could find was Vinas Vietnamese food. It wasnt that great but there was lots to make fun of there-which was fun. We then moved on to phase 2 of keiths plans. he wanted to sit on the beach for a while-I was cool with that. So we went to this little bit of beach that he found on the internet under "5 best makeout spots in vancouver"...kinda funny. So we get there and there is this little rock "nook" because the tide was down-it was cute. So we set up our blanket so that we could lean against the big log that was in the nook. keith then pulls out his computer and says that he wrote a song for me and made it into a music video. The video is pretty funny (its supposed to be) and the song is really cute. So the music video ends and at the end "I Love You" appears on the screen then fades away, then "Rachael," comes and fades and then *gasp* "will you marry me" comes and fades. HOLY SMOKES!! He just asked me to marry him...I honestly had no idea it was coming-i totally thought we were waiting until after China but now is just as good!! So he gets to his one knee and asks again and of course I say yes he pulls out a sweet ring (i love it) and thats it. We're officially engaged. Then we collected some rocks and put them into a glass jar that he brought as our "engagement souvenir". It was great. We spent some more time on our secluded beach (no on else was there) then headed to...I cant remember the name...its under a bridges and it's called an island but isnt...anyway we went there and looked around then had supper. Then we went to another beach and watched a movie on the laptop then headed to prospect point in stanly park to have a look at the lions gate bridge and by then it was time to catch our 11:00 flight back home. We were so tired but it was such a great day!! *sigh*
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Wednesday, April 4th, 2007
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11:19 am
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32 days to China
I went shopping last night with Maikki and brittany and the twins to find some stuff for china. I bought a pair of walking sandles and a gold belly ring because Dr. Wong thinks im allergic to the metal. It looks to be helping. Im thinking i'll move back home. I really want to save more money. And it would only be for a little while right?? I'll have to talk with Joy. I really dont want to be at work today...really really dont want to be here. It feels like a waste of time today.
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Friday, March 30th, 2007
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11:52 am - ho hum
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37 days to China and counting...woo hoo!! Im so excitied to be not a work for a whole month. My roommate was trying to convince me to move into a condo with her because it is way nicer than our basement suite (and it is) but it's alsoe a few $100 more than what we currently pay...no thank you. So I had decided that i'd move back home which would allow me to save heaps of money. I was looking forward to the idea of going back for a few months-summers are especially fun in our house. But then Joy couldnt find another roommate to move in with so much to her dissapointment she must stay in our pit of dispair and now i feel like I also have to stay. But i'm still throwing around the idea of moving back home...especially if there may be a wedding coming up and i NEED more money!! So we'll see!!
Tomorrow is Davids engineer ring ceramony and somehow steph talked me into going. LAME!! There will be no food, I have to look good, and i do believe it will be boring...how exciting can a huge group of engineers be...really.
And speaking of food it's lunch time and me stomach calleth.
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Monday, March 19th, 2007
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2:11 pm - its been over a month...how embarassing
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Holy smokes I can't believe its been so long since I last posted...not that its a big deal...there aren't may that read it anyway.
One of the most spectaular things that has happend since last post was I got to see VAN the MAN MORRISON in concert. My whole family went. And really even greater thatn seeing VMM was watching my dad see him for the first time. Dad is a HUGE fan...like I know all the words because my dad would always be singing them. He was just so happy and excited to see him. The day of the concert he was driving really really carefully because he didnt want to die until he saw him. It was great. And while we're on the concert topic I also got to see Ruthie Foster-wow. She was really really really good. It was funny because shes a big black lady and the majority of the crowd was white folk above age 45...it seems weird to me. But they all clapped and stomped and screamed and danced along. I bought her newest CD that night.
The last two weeks I spent house sitting for a friend from work. My goodness I wanted to go home soooo badly. I couldnt believe I missed my ugly, cold, dry walled basement. The only thing good about staying at Gaylenes was that its a 4 minute drive to work so I got to sleep a lot. Also Nassira stayed there with me so it was nice to catch up on our friendship.
Me and Keith started this book called "saving your marriage before it starts" I know I know what you're thinking...LAME...which is what I thought it would be when Steph recommended it to me but oddly enough I love it. I comes with a womens work book and a mans work book and so what you do is read the book and then it tells you to do stuff out of the work book. So we read the 1st 1/2 of the 1st chapter and there were 2 work book activities in that section. So far we've talked about "unspoken rules" they separate them into sections like "meal time rules" or "rules about finances" "quirky rules" also "rules about holidays and family tradition"...it covers a lot of things. So you work on the rules separatly then discuss them. It was good to know. We both wrote down spending christmas morning with our respective families. he wants to be with his and i want to be with mine...hmmmm...we'll have to see how that works out. Then the next activity had us defining roles. There is a check list of different "duties" such as cleaning, cooking, staying home with children, auto work, taking out the garbage, finances, blah blah. And first you would check off whether it was your mother or father or both that did it, then you'd check off who you want between the two of you to do it, then you go through it together and decide who will actually do it. I ended up with laundry and i think Keith got everything else...or it went to both of us...he really wanted to cook...im okay with that!!
I'm going out for supper with Kenny tonight. That could be really really awkward. I figured I should talk with him seeing as how i'm dating his best friend...Keith wants him as his best man. I'm okay with that...as long as he supports both of us-otherwise there is no point...right??
Trip to China is fast approaching and there is still so much to do. We dont have our visas for china yet, I need to get camping towels becuase apparently they dry faster and i still have no idea what to pack. I've decided i'll have to bring blanket of somesort...and maybe a pillow case...i hear that Chinese trains can get pretty nasty and you can never really trust hotel rooms...ewwwwwww. Brittany bought a ballet workout DVD (we're planning on taking ballet in the fall) and so i think i'll bring the portable DVD player so we can do that...or watch something on our 30 hour train ride...and seeing as how we're in china i think i'll need to get ear plugs...their language for so long and loud is going to drive me up the wall.
I threw an outstanding party at Cindy's house with friends from work. It was soooo much fun. How can you go wrong really with Martinis, Wii and Karaoke. I'm throwing another one at Jacquies house in April before I leave.
Well better get back to work...i promise to post more often.
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Thursday, February 15th, 2007
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2:43 pm
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Great news...Brittany is definatly coming to China with us!! WOO HOO!! This means I now have a room buddy...so 1/2 the money and double the fun!! Yesterday was Valentines day. I hate the day becuase it's so lame...why celebrate love only one day of the year-it's not even a celebration of love it's made for flower and candy shops to get more money-silly really. But even though I hate it it's still fun!! Keith came over in the morning and cooked me breakfast and brought me flowers-lovely. I got to plan the evening and so I made a "treasure hunt" type thing for Keith starting with a massage and then some food and then eventually I met him at the skating rink and we skated for a while-I really like skating, which is weird becuase I always thought I didnt. Anyways it was a nice evening. O after breakfast Keith was going to stay at my house to put my shelf up while i was at work and when I got home there were little notes hidden in my house...i found one in my cereal this morning (they're from keith) they're pretty cute and some really rather funny. So altogether an enjoyable day.
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Monday, February 12th, 2007
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12:06 am
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It's offical...we bought tickets and we'll be leaving Canada May 6 to face our greatest adventure yet!! CHINA. I have a really hard time beliving that i'm actually going...it all seems like a strange dream. However i'm determined to have fun!! We found another couple to come with us-they're married. And Brittany may come along as well-which would mean i wouldnt have to sleep by myself. I'll be back on June 1, i'll have a weekend to get my clock back on track then i'll head 'er back to work. It'll be nice to have that time off of work as well!! Gotta go to bed now...
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Wednesday, January 24th, 2007
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4:11 pm
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ive gone to the gym twice a week for 3 weeks now...that's pretty good...usually i give up after a week. i think it works becuase 1) i dont go home after work i just go straight there 2) the gym is in the opposite direction of my home so once i get started there is no turning back-that would be a waste of gas. Feeling pretty good about it...Maria and I went to the kick boxing/boxing/other fighting sports workout and i can barely life my arms without feeling some pain...but holy smokes was it ever fun-i think i'll keep going to that one. Keith brought be a beautiful bouqet of flowers last night...so sweet. We went to see Dream Girls, then went skating without skates and back to my house-it was fun. Me and Yoj have decided to stay in our moldy basement. Our landlords ripped out our bedroom walls last weekend and insulated and re drywalled. So now its not so stinkin' cold, there is no mold and our walls are very very ugly. They still have to paint. O...so latest plan is to go to China with Keith in May. Just for the month. Mostly so that i can see it-make sure i'm not making the biggest mistake of my life...so we kinda want somebody else to come with us-currently we're trying to get steph and dave OR joy and peter (one of keiths friends). We NEED to find someone else or else keith's parents might come. That would be awful!! I mean i like them and all but please...So if you're reading this and youre interested let me know!! I think the whole trip is only going to cost about $2000-that includes everything per person!! I just hope i can get the time off of work. And speaking of work id better get back to it before i get fired...
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Thursday, January 18th, 2007
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12:01 am
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i got a SWEET ACTION raise at work...i am so happy about that...it sure feels good to be making more money...makes me want to work harder...i think that's the point. Me and Keith went on our first date tonight (yeah i know...we havent gone on a real 'date' yet") but i'm dead tired becuase i work late on Wednesday and so the plan was dinner and a movie...ended up just doing dinner then watching a movie at my house instead of going out...which is equally as nice i guess. Crap...its really late...i'll post later
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Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007
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10:12 pm - sorry it's in point form
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i realize its been a while...things to know:
-There was mold growing in Joys room...isnt that nice. So we told our landlords...thats as far as its gone
-Me and keith are reading this spectacular book called The Man Who Was Thursday ya'll should read it...also he came with me to watch patrica sing..got to meet the Gimble crew
-Tomorrow me and Maria are going for German food with Waiko who is back for the holidays...itll be nice to see her again
-I think my father will finally put my mirrors up for me this week...sweet
-Christmas was awesome. Nassira came to the christmas eve service, then to mums for snacks...then to granny's for Christmas dinner. Keith bought me a sweater...it's nice, he's got good taste.
-We all went to Karens house for new years (sweet hot tubbing) it was nice just to hang out with everyone...got to talk with Karen about her strange reaction to me and keith dating-it's nice to have that all figured out. Her boyfriend from Nepal is trying to get a student visa so he can come here...that'll be so nice for her.
-My room is clean
-A new convenience store has opened across the street from my house...we went to buy something today and he gave us free pop corn and pop...now we have to go back.
-Chewing on the idea of getting married this fall...eek
-OOO had dinner at the Goertzens boxing day...i was worried that i'd hate it and it would be awkward..ended up having a great time...we walked around the ledge after dinner
-went to keiths sisters the other night for some drinks and fondu with the fam-again a good time...had a drink and 2 shots. She invited me to come to her next movie party with some other girls...
I think that's pretty much it...nothing too exciting...
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Saturday, December 23rd, 2006
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2:39 am - Deja Vu
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Well...we're official. Keith and I went on a double date with 2 of his friends tonight. We went to Muddy Water cafe. It was nice to meet some of his friends. Anyway so we had planned to talk again because i wanted to discuss my "commitment" issues. The root of them. So we went back to my place i talked about them...he talked about a few things as well...then i said..."this is exactly what John Mayer is talking about in his song" (love soon-bypass the BS) I was like there is no way i'm going to wait another week and a 1/2 when it's obvious. So after saying the john mayer comment i said "but that's okay Keith take your time". Then he leaned over and said "would you like to date Rachael?" So of course i said "yes, yes i would like that very much". he hugged me and all of a sudden it was like we never broke up...immediate comfort. We just sat and talked then Joy came home...i told her...she talked with us for a while then she went to bed and we continued on until 2:40ish...then i sent him home for sleep...I have a feeling this is going to be okay
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Sunday, December 17th, 2006
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2:59 am - moving but still stuck
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Keith just left-it's 2:41 in the morning. We had a surprise birthday party for steph tonight. The whole gang came...even kenny. We played charades-girls won. Then we watched 'all dogs to go heaven' its a really old cartoon that we had all watched as kids but couldnt remember the plot...it's acutally a really dark, kinda sick movie and i cant really belive mum and dad let us watch it. So people started leaving at around 12ish. Keith was the last one to go up and i walked him to the door so that i could lock it and he said "ummm, rach, is there a time that we could talk?" and i said "tomorrow after church...i hate it when you do this because i get all anxious and scared and such, can we just talk now?" he said sure. He brought up my commitment issue. Which if ya'll didnt know, i have. He was wondering if this is something that needs to be worked out before we started something or after. To be honest i dont know where to start with it. Maybe i'll see a counselor and that might get me started. Anyway so after we talked about that we just sat and talked up until 2:30. It was so great. i got to tell him how torn i feel between him and china and my family and got to ask some more china questions and he got to ask me questions and we'd joke then talk about something serious then more questions then joke...it was so comfortable it could have been just two friends hanging out...and Keith is so respectful of physical boundaries...makes it so much easier. So it was great. just great. gotta sleep...KK is singing at church in the morning.
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Thursday, December 14th, 2006
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10:37 pm - Goin' to the Keg
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So...Cody Steve and Keith all used to work together (keith now works for a guy that is kinda connected to the guy he used to work with) ANYWAY...They are having a Christmas party tomorrow and keith was invited becuase he worked most of the year with them...however keith cannot go because he is playing basket ball with some kids tomorrow night but if it werent for that he would have taken me...Cody is taking my sister Andrea and so I wanted Steve to take me...by the way they are going to the Keg where their boss Gary will pay for all our meals and drinks and all around good time. So i called Steve and was like "hey so who are you taking to your christmas party" and he said "ahhhh...you're kidding me...i kinda accidentally asked Jenn (friend...sorta...from high school) but i had thought of asking you" and i said "STEVEN!! Come on...you have to take me" anyway so i argued a good case as to why i should go (this was all wednesday night) and he's like "well what am i supposed to do i already said i'd take this girl" And by this time i'm acutally kinda dissapointed becuase honestly i've been a fairly good friend to steve, i think anyway, and actually he told me that just the other day...Ive driven him around lots and i've been there for him during the break ups and blah blah blah...so i felt i deserved the free dinner. Anyway so he said he'd call me thursday and i said okay. So he calls me tonight and says if jenn cant go he'll take me and i was lile "no way steve you have to take me..." and i think he thought i'd actually get mad or sad which i probably would have but not told him. And he said he'd call me back in 1/2 hour. I get the call..."wear a dress" is all he says...and i say "i dont know steve...im not sure i want to go if you really wanted to go with jenn" (becuase i did feel kinda guilty) and he said "oh yes you are...i just told a girl this completley messed up story so that i could take you"...okay kinda of a weird and not really all together story but what i'm trying to say here is that....isnt that sweet?? Steve is such a sweet heart. And he said "no rach you really deserve to have a free meal...blah blah" it was so nice...so nice...Steven is one friend that i know loves me...not just because of this one time...he's done lots of nice stuff and he always want to hang out and he respects my opinion and ..yeah...really cook guy. So i also bought this sweet dress and heels tonight. I'm a little nervous to wear them because they are quite high and the dress is really not what i normally wear...not in a bad way...just not usually my style. I went shopping with Nassira and the outfit reminds me of her...pointy shoes, dangly earrings, classy dress. OH and the girl that rang my stuff through was a christian. I love running into christians. Nassira was wearing some indian garb and was discussing with the girl at the store how superfical she thinks east indian women in regards to their clothing are and the girl was like "aww...everyones like that...I've gone to a couple churches that are even like that" and we started talking about the different churches and where she goes now and where goes now...i really appreiciated that fact that she brought something like Church into a everyday normal conversation with a customer she's never met who looks muslim (nassira not me) and was honest about it...didnt say "people arent like that in churchs...they're christians....she told it like it was but then said that they're not all like that and blah blah....it was cool...anyway i'm pretty sure i'm rambling and im too tired to spell check this so best of luck trying to read it...i'm going to bed.
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Monday, December 11th, 2006
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11:17 pm - Hero
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Was I the only one to notice
That human nature doesn’t work that way
They tell me if I look deep inside me
That I can find my own way
I only find a rebel and a fool there
Who won’t admit that he’s afraid
I thought I was holdin’ on to freedom
But locked my soul up in chains
I need a hero
Who’ll dare to find me
Fly to my rescue
And crash through the wall
Announce my freedom
Bring me to my senses
Gather me into his strong arms
And carry me off. . . to safety
What is this talk about a Savior
Well does he listen, is he even there?
And should I be asking him directly?
But why should he consider my prayer?
Well, I don’t quite know how to do this
But Jesus, I can’t save myself
So here I go calling out for mercy
And crying out for your help
(So if you hear me. . .)
I need a hero
Please dare to find me
Fly to my rescue
And crash through the wall
Announce my freedom
Bring me to my senses
Gather me into your strong arms
And carry me off
-Chris Rice
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